Mixed feelings

[redbird]

There's an odd feeling of exclusion at not being part of a meeting that is compulsory for almost everyone in the office, but that they seem to wish they could skip, because I'm a temp.

It's definitely connected to the fact that I would like to be a full-time employee, with security and benefits, even if it meant sitting in the occasional large and tedious meeting.

What's the opposite of "those grapes are sour, anyway"? This is closer to "not that I want to eat the bitter fruit, but I would like to be at the table with you, even if the fruit is bitter."

Comments

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

"I would sit at table with you even if the fruit was bitter" just sounds lovely to me.

[redbird]

Thank you.

It took me two readings to see just how you'd polished my phrasing; thank you for that as well.

[orangemike.livejournal.com]

"The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence" is what occurred to me.

[holyoutlaw.livejournal.com]

A little while ago, there was a party in Seattle that I wouldn't have gone to, if I'd been invited. But I wasn't invited, so I felt snubbed. Hah!

Not the same situation you're in, but I think similarly mixed emotions. ;>

[rdkeir.livejournal.com]

"Life - full of loneliness, and misery, and suffering, and unhappiness, and it's all over much too quickly." -- Woody Allen, Annie Hall

[intelligentrix.livejournal.com]

I've felt that feeling, having gone the temp route for many of my NYC years. Exclusion is still exclusion, even if it's something you wouldn't want to do anyway. It's what the thing (in this case the meeting) represents rather than the thing itself. But then, you knew that.


And also, sorry we didn't get to see you on our trip up to the city. Maybe next time? I'd like to come when it's supposed to be warm, and maybe take in the Bronx zoo. I have fond memories of going there with you and catitude.

[redbird]

I'd have liked to see you, but I didn't really have the energy, alas. Maybe next time.